Racing with thoughts
Unable to sleep, I asked an ai what can I do to sleep.
but talking to an ai, isn’t talking a human-being,
is just a replicate answer machine,
that doesn’t replace human emotions,
you want that thing ‘ai’ to feel,
but time in night, doesn’t hold.
the longer I’d think I realize
how much my family gave in,
the humanistic toxic relationship,
and myself selfishly,
I have to change my politeness,
as what my mom says
during those calls…
But I realize, the longer I tried to calm myself down,
the discomfort, of reminding myself seeing a bunch of
people the next day on train,
I realize that anxiety is never going to stop
Earlier in the evening, just even meeting other people,
I shrugged myself, to the non-contact feeling.
But now as I’m as typing, I think writing my thoughts give me
less anxiety, even if I can’t get a perfect sleep
As long, I remain positive the next day meeting others,
and the nuisances of remanants of my family nearby,
I think I can stay positive and control myself to
try not be negative, but walk forward
to something that can change.